Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Acknowledgement to the Heart.

Whenever something unpleasant happens;

People say:
Don't take things for granted.
Look at the bright side.
Better things await.

Sometimes what we need is not the rationale behind things.
Everybody can think.
Wise words might help.
But just how far words and rationale sank into our emotions?
We need more appreciation to how we feels.
Not to solve anything.
Just to feel.

So Cry. Shout. Laugh.
Our hearts deserve some acknowledgement.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Day of Divine Diversity


Today I just want to share a bit of writings from Botany MP , Hon Pansy Wong. (Also the current Minister of Ethnic Affairs of New Zealand) . Although her story this time does not involve the Muslim communities in New Zealand, believe it or not she was kind enough to drive for 1 and half hour to Hunua Falls for a Muslim Summer Camp organized by Youth Muslim Women of Auckland (YMWA) December last year. Her speech back then motivated me a lot to try to appreciate my difference and put it to an advantage of my own terms. 

Botany Pansy Speak

29 October 2010

Day of Divine Diversity

Last week I joined the Prime Minister on a three stop tour of some churches and temples frequented by the residents of our patch. I thought the visits were a fantastic demonstration of the diversity we are fortunate enough to enjoy here in Botany.

First we visited Reverend Andrew Brown and his congregation at the Pakuranga Baptist Church. The worshipers were obviously excited to have the Prime Minister there and gave us a very warm welcome. The church already had a Christmas feel about it as there was a giant pile of presents stacked in the foyer ready to be shipped overseas for those less fortunate.

Our next stop was just across the car park at the Baptist Chinese Church where the Reverend Albert Tang was just about to start the morning's service. Again we were given an enthusiastic welcome by the close-knit congregation. I thoroughly enjoyed the performance by the well rehearsed choir who very much looked the part of a church choir in their uniformed robes.

The third stop on our tour was just down the motorway at the Manuwera Sikh Temple. Upon our arrival we were given a tour of the Nanaksar Education Phulwari - the Childcare Centre adjacent to the Temple. While there we had an opportunity to meet with the excited children and enjoy some traditional Indian food. We were also welcomed to speak to the congregation in the temple itself. It was an impressive sight from the podium looking out over the many hundreds of attendees - the men on the right and the women on the left creating a brightly coloured sea of traditional clothing.

Below is a photo of the Prime Minister and I at story time in the Childcare Centre.
The whole day highlighted for me why New Zealand has twice been named the most peaceful nation in the world. A large part of this accomplishment can be attributed to the leaders of the various faiths in New Zealand as well as the community's respectful and inclusive nature towards a multi-faith and multi-ethnic society.

More information on Pansy Wong available here  

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Model ASEAN Regional Forum

Date: Saturday, 2 October 2010.
Time: 9.00am – 5.00pm
Venue: Case Room 2, OGGB (Owen G. Glenn Building), University of Auckland

The ASEAN Regional Forum (ARF) is a deliberative body facilitated by the Association of South East Asian Nations (ASEAN) to conduct multilateral dialogue on issues critical to the region. There are 27 participant nations in the Regional Forum, including the 10 ASEAN members, as well as States from around the Asia Pacific region, and beyond.

The Model ASEAN Regional Forum was attended by tertiary level students from various degree and background, pretending like we were the minister from the respective ASEAN countries. The event was held on 2nd August 2010 at Auckland University hosted by Auckland United Nations Youth Association of New Zealand (UNYANZ). It was my first event with the Auckland UNYANZ. Under Wellington UNYANZ previously I have supervised two Model UN debates in 2008 as a conference assistant and organized the Central North Island Model UN (CNIMUN) earlier this year as the Logistic Coordinator.

In Model ARF, I represented Thailand. I did apply Malaysia as my first choice of country but someone else got the place before me. Nonetheless, becoming a minister of Thailand was indeed very valuable experience to me as well. I had to debate the issue raised with respect to the foreign policy and the condition of Thailand. I also had the opportunity to make alliance with other countries other than mine, by considering the political interest that Thailand have with them, including Malaysia. Having said that, I had the opportunity to try to look at Malaysia from different perspectives.

The issue discussed was about the development of human rights in the ASEAN region following the establishment of ASEAN Intergovernmental Commission on Human Rights(AICHR). We debated over the steps required to fully utilize the commission for the promotion and protection of human rights. Considering that ASEAN cultures, ethnicities, and religions are very diverse human rights has to be handled in a very careful manner. The principles set out in the Charter of ASEAN had always been our guideline for peaceful and effective negotiation, including the respect for the principles of territorial integritysovereignty, non-interference and national identities of ASEAN members. At the end of the debate, the resolution passed and that marked the collective victory for all delegates present.

My personal contribution to this debate included making public speech, raised questions and also cooperation with my partner who also represented Thailand with me. It was my first experience debating for Model UN / ASEAN debate hence having someone to discuss with was a good opportunity for me to develop better understanding of the forum systems and the issue itself. Also, the experience of making alliance between countries was really meaningful because in the end, it was not just about the alliance between participating countries but I myself met new friends as well. The Model ARF overall has become a great opportunity for me to develop my language as well as social skills.

This is actually an official report I sent to MSD  


Friday, September 3, 2010

People and Humanity

I couldn't sleep. Urghh.. Okay, let's not dwell upon that and let me tell you something that I've recently discovered.
Please note also this entry actually does not hold any particular views about utopia or anything of the sort. At all. (In case you expect something more upon reading the title)  
  • Upon studying my Logic notes last night (oh well, practically few hours ago since I haven't quite get my night nighty sleep yet) I came to realize that I'm much more interested in the life of Mathematician/Logician involved than the content of what they were studying. This also happen whenever I studied other Math paper such as Coding and Cryptography which its foundation was laid by an algebra prodigy Galois.

Évariste Galois (French pronunciation: [evaʁist ɡalwa]) (October 25, 1811 – May 31, 1832) was a French mathematician born in Bourg-la-Reine. While still in his teens, he was able to determine a necessary and sufficient condition for a polynomial to be solvable by radicals, thereby solving a long-standing problem. His work laid the foundations for Galois theory, a major branch of abstract algebra, and the subfield of Galois connections. He was the first to use the word "group" (Frenchgroupe) as a technical term in mathematics to represent agroup of permutations. A radical Republican during the monarchy of Louis Philippe in France, he died from wounds suffered in a duel under shadowy circumstances[1] at the age of twenty.
Dead by 20 years old!! So Sad! 

  • I long realized that I'm much interested in philosophy behind a subject. I really want to be good in what I'm studying and I always find this kind of background reading is motivating.
Cantor believed his theory of transfinite numbers had been communicated to him by God.[12] David Hilbert defended it from its critics by famously declaring: "No one shall expel us from the Paradise that Cantor has created."[13]
Now that is somewhat a beautiful idea, if not cult. lol 
  • I'm also interested in psychology because I really love to get to know myself and the people around me. 

  • Same goes to politics. I'm interested in how politics has an impact on people. 

  • I love anthropology because I love studying culture, the major shaper of society today. It also gives me a sense of sensitivity towards other culture. 
  • Faces of the world 
  • Religion? Should I say more? Religion is meant to unify people and become the ultimate equalizer of all. With a high degree of tolerance towards other faiths as well, of course.

  • My love for people and humanity transcends beyond what I study as I simply could see it everywhere I go. I hope every step I made would have a positive impact on humanity albeit quite often,I'm influenced by people more than my contribution to them.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Memori silam datang kembali ..

This ad really brings back memories of my family and I back in the 90's. 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

terutama kepada Papa, Mama yang berusaha membesarkan Mimi dengan Keropok Lekor, ABC dan buku-buku. 

Friday, June 25, 2010

Knock my head, please

I'm freaking out.
Even the most common terms and symbols
look like a jargon.

Mentally disturbed
Physically petrified
Spiritually dismayed
Perfect combination.

Had a bad dream last night
I couldn't get myself in time
I didn't miss it
but I certainly lost it.
I couldn't get it done
and I thought I was done for.

I woke up all sweaty.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

FIFA 2010 Kick-Off Review by Mimi Si Kaki Bangku

June 12th marked the beginning of FIFA World Cup 2010. And tonight, I'm going to give you a brief review of what my housemate, Carrie and I observed during the kick-off match between Mexico and South Africa just now.

Here are the highlighted players and the short comments on how they behave or look throughout the match:


3 – A player with the face of a domestic abuser. *Muka garang. Takut takut >.<*

4 – Marquez. A cute player. In the second half of the game he scored a goal then sucked his thumb like a baby just before no. 17 hugged him from the back. *Huh? Kenapa perlu hisap jari?*

9 – Carrie's favourite .He looked scary when he missed the ball but he seemed to improve over time. *Here's Carrie's response - I want number nine!*

11- C.Vella. A cute player. Mine. *lol* Too bad he did an off-side in the first half and was substituted in the whole 2nd half. I wish to see him perform even more.

12 – Another cute guy that Carrie likes. *When I asked why she favourited number nine then she said oh, nak like both number 9 and 12 lah. Dua dua cute*

17 – Santos. “Budak kecik” in our term but he wasn't bad at all. The opposition seemed to mark him a lot since he's a little aggressive. The first yellow card receiver in FIFA 2010 history!.

Goalkeeper – He looked pretty relax during the first half since the South African didn't attack so much but once on the second half he freaked out like someone shocked with a stun gun. *Gaya sangat gelabah okey* . That was a near miss goal anyway.

South Africa

I cannot distinguish the players except the team icon, Pienaar. For some obvious reason. *Hehe..*
All of them have the rugged appearance. Even stronger than the opposition. *this is a compliment by the way*

The other part of the game that we liked was the Slow Motion part, be it a replay or merely a glimpse of the players. On several occasions Carrie and I laughed at something like these:

a) The slow motion on one of the front benchers (possibly a coach or a manager) showed his Very Wide Mouth out of frustration over a missed goal. I was awed. *besarnya mulut die*

b)The slow motion on one of the screaming player made him look like a fish. In Carrie's word , “MPK(Majlis Perbandaran Kuantan) fish”

Overall of the game was not too bad . We had quite a fair result especially as a kick-off (1-1).Carrie and I especially admire the kick of no.4,Marquez because it looked better than the plain goal of South Africa. And yes, your hypothesis is true → We supported Mexico because they have cute guys :P albeit I did feel like rooting for the host team. But they were just too defensive.

I apologize for any disappointment over the review and especially for the slow motion part, I want to clearly state that we did not purposely try to laugh or offend anyone. It was instantaneous and I took it as a spice of our celebrated FIFA 2010.

You may also feel this review is not helpful or insightful at all but thank you for reading anyway. You've helped me to go through another sleepless night . i.e I tried to sleep earlier but my mind couldn't stop narrating this review and after 1 hour, I gave up sleeping. 

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The Road Not Taken (1915)

by : Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

My response:

I shouldn't sigh
Though I've long wondered
Whether I should follow my Dream
Or to re-evaluate my strength
Because I may not notice
My strength may lay somewhere
Beyond what I Want to do
But at what I do Best
And what I should care
Is to take it to my Liking

12:28 am

Sunday, May 30, 2010

What Literacy Has Meant For Me II


Honesty is claimed as the best policy.
Yet it may also repel others
once truth has come to light.

It is the only act of kindness
with its own counterbalance:
potentially calming and calamitous at once.

While sincerity is always questionable,
honesty should justify everything.
So honesty, please stay with me.

peace (^_^)~V

2.10am 29th May 2010
Victoria University of Wellington

Written by: Shamimi Shamsuddin
Edited by: Rafie Zuhaili

I feel like a writer. It's not everyday someone actually comes and proofreads your writing. I remember several friends who proofread my academic essays previously. My tons of thanks to Aiman, Fauzi, Chouji, Asyer (ok. semua lelaki ke.lol. no wonder William told me I'm a 'kaki lelaki' .oops. wth. he simply meant i have a good social skills ;P) . Without them, who knows how I'd passed my writing papers with my limited skills. After all, I'm a Math students who loves numbers but currently seems to almost forget how they look like. A bit of identity conflict there. ;P Writing is just a passion derives from my love for reading. 

My mum works in a Book Cooperative. I was surrounded by books even before I was born. And I remember well how I played between those bookshelves with a childhood friend of mine, Boy. I honestly don't know his real name. lol. (oh, another boy? lol). My mum brought home Dewan Pelajar every month when I was in primary school and my dad used to read story books to me, particularly fairy tales. Mimi Goldilocks and the Three Bears. I could still remember that. I was well aware the main character's name was not Mimi to begin with but I knew that was his way to make me like the story and thus, built up the reading habit.And my brother introduced me to Comics. (I am still a big fan of comics ;P). I used to become a Library prefect, and even work part-time with my mum since I was 15. In short, I love books :)

But to write a book, or a long long story is a hard work. I'm a lazy bum. Hence, whenever I feel like there are so many things to tell, and so little word that I could put into writing, it'll turn out to be a poem. And my poems could explain things better than my usual writing. It is concise yet very precise. It is subtle but it's still decodable. oh i'm a Math student, still. I love symbols. 

My short poem up there was edited by my not so new friend who has been generously edited it without my permission but perfectly put my gist to the lines without losing its originality. ;) Thank you very much. I can't thank you much enough of how you boosted my vocabulary by making me check the dictionary whenever I read your writing.  (This is a compliment by the way. :p). Thanks again. 

Sunday, May 9, 2010

My not so new Life.

I love my studies. But when your study breaks your heart you feel like you're left with nothing isn't it? Well, the world is not at the end. At least not yet.

Just recently I've hired a tutor for my Algebra (statistically the 2nd hardest undergrad Math paper at Victoria University). I've never imagined to go this far. I was pretty much self-sufficient when it goes to study. I can go to see lecturer when I feel I needed to, but not always.Yet this time, I really need extra helps because I can't rely on the lecturer alone or even myself. I don't want to explain any further on why I take this step that costs me $20/h.It's too depressing. All you need to know is, this is me,struggling to stand on my feet in my final year of my Math degree. Whether it really works or not, we'll see 7 weeks from now. I pray that it works. And it will, because I have to make it happen.
"Let no one think that it is impossible because it is difficult. It is the highest goal, and it is no wonder that the highest effort should be necessary to attain it.(M.K. Ghandhi)"
I've talked to my mates about Life recently. Looking back on how I spend my time this year, I may say that I meet less people, offer less service, shop less(well that's good actually), attend less social activities as compared to what I've done in previous years. I was busy and now I am still occupied. But only by my study and sleep.I've tossed away things that I like for this enjoyable unsurpassed freedom to pursue my intellectual pursuits (as my friend beautifully put it). I could confine myself in my house 3 days without stepping out of the door at all and sit for more than 8 hours for studying. And to be honest, I don't regret it at all. In fact, I feel like I'm closer to what I want this year. My life may seem dull to others but I'm trying to enjoy it the best I can. It's even harder than I ever imagined. And the finite time that has been graciously given to me sometimes feels too short. And just because I'm not doing many activities in significance it doesn't mean that I have enough time for everything. I still need to continuously reevaluate and reconsider my steps and my investment on Mr Time. 

"If you don’t have time to do it right,
when will you have time to do it over?"
- John Wooden
Indeed, I understand that it's not how much time you spend is important , but it's how productive you spend your time that matters. Quality over quantity, yes that's exactly what I seek for. Please pray that my epic steps here will finally get me to what I want.

Here's a song that somehow raised my spirits for over a week already.

01 What Faith Can Do.mp3

Friday, April 2, 2010


I’m finally done with the clubs and any management responsibilities.

As at 1st April 2010, I’m free like a bird. Spreading my wings and fly to a new horizon. Focusing more on my academics as my academic is NOT at its best yet and I direfully need to improve my grades and performances.

For now, it may be good to recap what I had earlier this year.

As in January, I was away in South Island doing some fruit-packing at Clutha Packing Centre, Roxburgh, Central Otago. Working mostly 10 hours per day was tiring though sometimes I demanded even more work. My materialist eyes couldn’t escape the temptation of money regardless how strained my muscle was.I packed cherries and apricots. I love the foods and the people but hell it’s tiring now that i don’t feel like working like that again. As per the experience, it’s good enough and it’s Really Enough. lol. Though I'd surely miss the moments I had with my friends and my bosses there.

I had good times traveling to Christchurch, Dunedin and Queenstown as well. The warm South Islanders greeted me and took me around. It was my first time going to South and it was indeed a beautiful memory.In short, South Islanders Rock!

Those valuable experiences I included also in a cultural adjustment interview workshop during the International Student Orientation handled by Vic Internationals in February. I talked in front of about 200 new international students about challenges and what they could possibly experience in New Zealand later on.

End of February marked my first experience becoming the Campus Coach for 2010 new Victoria University students. It was a 5 weeks program including the training week. I was trained to assist new students for a smoother transition in university alongside another 100+ other campus coaches. This year alone, we’ve coached more than 900 students which is an increasing number of around 200 students compared to last year. I’m glad to be part of the program so far and thanks to it, I made a lot of new friends as well. Getting good feedback from the students and the coordinator reminded me of how I became the facilitator  in high school ages ago.(man, i feel old. lol)

To be honest, dealing with new students is not really a new thing for me. But,dealing with new students who came entirely from different culture as I am was really new to me. I was quite anxious of their acceptance to me and how well they'd understand the message that I tried to convey. I couldn't sleep well 2 days prior to my first meeting with all of the scary thoughts that I might not be able to get any students at all. However, it turned out that I had 9 students under my care and in our last meeting some of us had an awesome time at Kaffe Eis eating ice cream.

On 31st March 2010, I organized the Central North Island Model United Nations in Palmerston North. Alongside with my professional teammates, we even made it to the news! As the least experienced person in MUN, I was given the post of Logistics Coordinator. It’s a high post with huge responsibilities. Nonetheless, it’s my first time handling logistics so I screwed a lot. You hear me, A LOT.  But the event turned out very well thanks to my Event Coordinator Alex Sinclair and Wellington UNYANZ President Scott Summerfield. Not to forget my fellow Conference Assistants that woke up and get set to go to Palmey by 6 o'clock in the morning! Priceless.

Previously, I was engrossed in secretarial and managerial roles that I tend to pay the least attention to logistics as I’d just leave the responsibilities to the logistics officer. And if I were to handle any logistics I would be the one handling the money, at hands. CNIMUN was a big difference to me as I have to do the budgeting without the money at hands and make few bookings . Adapting to a new working culture is also another thing. There were so much to learn about! The style, the food and the manners.  I would say this might be my biggest event so far but with me giving the lesser contributions.  I’m glad to be in such a committed and professional team but I’m not fully satisfied with my role-playing this time.  Simply said, it was hell a big challenge for me and to be honest, I was not at my best. Oh am I selling myself short this time?

Nonetheless, I thank Allah for giving me great opportunities to experience all these sorts of things while I’m in New Zealand and I won’t stop thanking Him for all the stress and responsibilities that He’ve trusted upon me. It was all worth it. Be it good or bad, they were all for something.

A friend of mine reminded me that “everything has its time and place”.

Bad things would happen at the our unexpected point in our life but in the end, it was meant to happen. We need to learn from the mistakes and put our best effort not to let it happen again.

Easier said than done Mimi??  Sure thing.

May the Force be with us.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

something less worthy


Saya nak ke kelas

(tu pun nak cakap ke?)

Saya nak mandi dulu

(tu pun nak cakap ke)

Saya tido banyak arini

(sape suruh tido lambat)

Hari ni hujan

(ingat ni weather forecast ke)

Saya kene study

(yes.so pegilah mandi)

Ini  hanyalah post random utk mengisi ruang blog yg dah makin bersarang ni.

Dengan ini diisytiharkan rumah aku dah ade broadband internet . yey.

Maybe I can write something more worth reading later. :P

Bye bye for now.